I've been debating when or if I'm going to tell more about my "story" of how things have been for me the past 6-12 months, but for now I'll just leave it at this: I have been struggling with BEING the happy, productive person that I want to be.
I've been waiting for a light switch to go off. A profound comment, a silent answer to a prayer, or just someone to shake me out of this (or slap, or dump a bucket of ice water...). Well, I haven't had some miraculous "turning point", and I'm not sure if i've hit "bottom" or whatever, but one thing is for sure. I'm realizing that I get to CHOOSE and I have not been choosing to be the person I want to be. I procrastinate, think negative thoughts and have make some pretty irrational choices.
SO. I've decided that I'm going to change. Two inspirations that have helped me are Kandee Johnson (a YouTube guru/make-up artist that I follow) and Alejandra Costello (a professional organizer, who is also on YouTube and her own site Alejandra.TV). These words are part of what helped me overcome my ridiculously negative mind and start making a positive change in my life:
"You're more beautiful than you think, more talented than you know, and more loved that you can possibly imagine." - Kandee Johnson
it's hard to sum up what Alejandra has said that's motivated me, because she has so many awesome videos and inspirational ideas but here are two things (not a quote, just my own summary):
You don't have to do anything, but choosing not to do anything also means there are consequences to that choice.
Make being productive something fun! If you can, change the way you do things to work for your personality and lifestyle. Try something new, if it doesn't work just keep trying! Don't try to do everything at once, just do things little by little.
So, what am I saying? I guess i'm saying, if you want to join me and be the person YOU have always wanted to be then lets do this together! I'm sure I will need support on those days I don't want to go to the gym, or I read an email that puts me in a terrible mood. I'm not going to make excuses any more. I'm in control, and I take responsibility for being the happy productive ME that I want to be! So follow my blog, leave a comment, watch my vlog (wait... a vlog? yes, i'm thinking of starting some vlogging) and decide today that YOU CAN DO IT!!! Whatever it is that you're wanting to change, you can.
#bringiton2014
#mentallystrong
